My friends, I feel the need to come to you and speak with you; as someone who is quite concerned with the image that I project on this blog of mine. I happened to be looking at one of my old postings, and I quickly had to make a few edits on that posting.
My friends, let me blunt with you: I sometimes, when I get angry, have a potty mouth problem. I really do not like to swear like a sailor; either in person or on this blog. It is a habit that I picked up, when I was horribly backslidden for several years, back in the 1990’s. For a good while, I had gotten victory over that little problem; but as of recent, I had let that little part of me go a bit and starting doing it again.
It is not the only thing that I have let go; I started smoking again, after I become involved with that trucking company, that I thought I was going to work for, only to be sent home, after some bogus accusations by a minority lesbian woman. I really don’t smoke cigarettes anymore, I am puffing on an e-cigarette, which works to keep my nicotine cravings fulfilled, but does not have all the other nasty stuff found in cigarettes. I also, for a good several years, was a daily Bible reader; yes, that is correct, I used to read the Bible everyday, sometimes more than once a day.
Well, after that little fiasco with a local Baptist Church in this area and my departure from it; I stopped reading every day, like I used to. I have tried to start back reading the Bible everyday, and I have failed miserably at it. The hardest thing to do, is to get started back in that discipline of setting time aside and opening the Bible and doing a daily reading exercise.
The reason I am telling you all this is because, I have up there in the blog’s subtitle about how this blog is supposed to be a Fundamentalist Baptist Christian blog, and how I am supposed to be defending those sort of beliefs; and how I am supposed to be defending traditional American values and such. But yet, if you look at my blog, you see swearing in some of the entries.
It is no wonder that people like Ed Brayton mock me to scorn. It is deserved. I blew it, again. Not only in the sight of the American people, or at least those who read this blog; but also in the sight of the Lord. It is a really good thing that my Salvation is not depending on my actions —- or my failings for that matter. Otherwise, I would most likely split hell wide open.
The Bible says that I am saved by Grace, through faith: not of works, least any man should boast. That is what I cling to for my Faith. But, I also realize that I am a living epistle, known and read of all men. What I write on this blog, and my previous one, might be all the Christianity that someone sees. That is something that troubles me greatly; that I have “blown it” many times in the past and might have caused someone to stumble, or even turned someone off to Christianity.
I do enjoy writing greatly, it gives me a place to vent my feelings about current events, politics, and even culture. I admit it; I have a great bias towards various aspects of modern culture. Some of it, I find extremely revolting — see Miley Cyrus. Some of it, I know that I should be more critical of; rock music, television, and the like. My biggest fear is coming off sounding like an old curmudgeon. After all, I am only 41 years old.
I guess what I am saying is this: In an earlier blog posting, I said that I do not wear my Christianity on my sleeve, and really I do not like to do this, because at some point, you begin to sound like an idiot, if you do. However, I think I could do a bit better representing the faith that I claim to be associated with.
So, from here on out; I am going to try to follow the rule of not blogging about anything, when I am personally angry about an issue that I have read about and feel the need to blog about. Because when emotions get in the way, you lose you ability to write about it, without sounding like an idiot. Not only that, you turn off those who are not Christians.
So, from here on out. I am going to TRY to do a bit better in that department. I make no promises, because I am very much a human, with human failings. But, I am sure going to try to keep myself in check on here in the future.
I simply ask for your prayers with this. Because I just cannot do it by myself. I beg the Lord’s help with it too.
Signed,
Patrick
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