Pat Austin is going through what I am going through….:
A Facebook friend noted today, “I can’t keep up with your blog posts!”
Don’t get used to it; I slacked off in 2013 because real life kept me busy. I probably suffered from some blogger burnout, too. Like a lot of conservative bloggers, I got real disheartened after the last presidential election. Between the two, I didn’t do a lot of relevant blogging last year.
I know how she feels, I really do.
When you have to strain to even put up a blog posting and you find yourself trashing posts in Draft, because you just don’t like what you are writing; you are suffering from burnout. I’m there now. It just ain’t fun anymore; and really has not been since around 2008.
Quoting myself, which I hate doing! — :
One of the characteristics of having A.D.H.D. is that we bore terribly easy. I do this very much so. Another thing is that I utterly hate having to repeat myself over and over. Once I write something about politics, Democrats and Obama; I have wrote it and I hate having to rehash things that I have already written about.
I think another thing too, for me anyhow; is that back in the day,( 2006 till 2008) as much as I hate that term — is that when I was on the “skeptical left of center” or as I like to call it; a Bush critic —- things were different. I had a motivation. I was criticising Bush. For me, it really was not from a partisan perspective. But, more from a reality perspective. I never considered myself a hardcore leftist at all. I just disagreed with what Bush was doing with Iraq.
Now that Bush is gone. I find myself struggling to write about anything. Yeah, I’ve written my share of stuff about Obama. Yes, socialism sucks. Yes, big government sucks. Yes Democrats are stupid. Blah, Blah, blah… I’ve said till I am blue in the face. I did my share of defending America from what I perceived as evil and anti-American. However, there comes a point when you begin to realize that no one is really listening to what you are writing; and I am NOT the type to write what people want to hear. I tried that crap on my old blog for a bit; and I was freaking miserable.
Oh, sure, I got hits and eyeballs on the blog. But it was not me. It was me writing in another style or someone else’s voice. I quit that quickly, and vowed never to do that crap, ever again. I want people to know what I think, not what some Republican or ultra-conservative wants to hear.
There are some people who will write what they think people want to hear. I have a word for those kind of people — sell outs. I have never, nor will I ever sell my soul out to anyone for the price of getting seen anywhere.
I guess what I am trying to say here is that I am not interested in being a part of the echo chamber at all. I did that for a short time, when I was blogging. But, on the right; the echo chamber is quite partisan and I am just not into partisan politics at all. Some people dig that sort of a thing; but not me. Do not get me wrong here; I disagree with direction of the Democrats at the moment. But, I really do have issues with the Republicans and some of the so-called Conservatives as well. The good part is, I have company. I am not the only one who feels the way that I do.
I also tend to be quite cynical as well — with both parties. This might be seen as bad; but I believe a cynical mistrust of Government is good thing. No matter who or what party is in power.