Off vaping and nicotine

I wrote a while back that I was off the smokes and now vaping. I then wrote about how I was stepping down the nicotine levels. Well, I now have some good news to report.

I can now officially report that I am now officially off the vaporizer. I stopped like a week ago. Now, was it hard to do it? Oh, you flipping aye right it was! I still miss the thing; I still crave the nicotine. However, it is more of a mental thing, than an actual physical craving. I would love nothing more than to go down to the tobacco shop and pick up a new wick and a nice bottle of mountain dew flavored e-liquid at about 6 or 7 mg of nicotine. But, I made a choice to stop and I am going to try my darndest to keep that promise to myself.

Let’s just be real about it; nicotine is just as bad as marijuana, heroin, cocaine and alcohol — it is addictive, it is very unhealthy and ultimately, it can kill you. Smoking cigarettes or vaping; or any other form of nicotine can turn you into a full on nicotine junky — and basically, being quite honest with you, I am one. I get it from my Father, he smokes, and has smoked since he was 13, so he says. Now, does the knowledge of these facts make me want to see nicotine, vaping and cigarettes outlawed or more tightly regulated? Nope. One cannot legislate or regulate morality. If you outlaw sin, the outlaws will find ways to sin — legal or not.

I personally feel that, as someone who has a nicotine addiction, nicotine addiction should be treated the same as any other addiction. It is the same mentality, it is the same pain, it is the same feeling of, “I cannot stop this”, and it is treated like a flipping joke. I have the personality of an addict; that if one is nice, twelve has to be better. I did that when I was drinking; and I did it when I was smoking and then vaping. There are people who disagree with that, and I am here to tell you, that they are stupid; and those who say that have never, ever been addicted to anything in their lives.

The reason I say that I do not favor the tightening of vaping regulations or any other form of nicotine regulations is because my starting back to smoking that I have done, off and on since age 19; was my own personal choice. I made the personal choice, because of stress to start back to smoking. I also have made a personal choice to stop again. Mainly, because I was asking my parents to pay for my habit. This is when I knew it was time to stop. If I were working and had normal weekly paycheck; heck, I would still be puffing away! However, I am not in that sort of a situation, so, I knew I had to stop.

The reason I made the choice that I made, was because of a job prospect; that ultimately ending up blowing up in my face. The stress from all that, sent me back to the smokes. It was not a fun time; and I quite frankly, I wish I had never even sought after that foolhardy mission.

Either way, I am hoping that I can keep this up. Pray for me, as I need it much.