WARNING!: What follows is a anger filled, issues laden, f-bomb land-mined, Anti-Women, Anti-Marriage, Anti-everything-under-the-fucking-planet rant. Keep small animals, Children, and anything else you want to avoid getting ugly all over ’em.

I swear to almighty GOTT! 😡

If I see one more sappy fucking traditional marriage posting over at HotAir.com, I am going to fucking PUKE!

This is most likely one of those postings that is going to most likely cost me a few readers…… So.fucking.be.it.

Before I dive into this; um….  rant. Let me remind you all, my Conservatism is of the “I do not want the Government telling me what to do“, Strain and of the “I don’t want the Government spending my tax dollars on stupid shit, like what Barack Obama is doing” kind.  The sappy social Conservative horse shit, which is what it really is, or as I like to call it; Behavioral Nazism. Is just NOT my fucking cup of tea. No, Wait. I HATE fucking TEA! yuck! It’s not my kind of Coffee. It’s what I drink, What?

I do not get into my personal life much on this blog. Because this blog, as far I am concerned has never been about me. My previous one did that, and many people thought I was fucking asshole for it. By rights, they were on the money. This is why I try and avoid talking about me.

There are two things that I have serious, serious, serious, and I do mean SERIOUS issues with; and that is Religion and Relationships.

First, let me preface the remainder of this entry with the following:

The rest of the entry is one thing and one thing only….. My own personal opinions. Opinions that have been formed by my own personal life experiences. Ergo, I present the rest…

Religion; I do not have have any issues with the teaching that Jesus Christ is the Messiah of Mankind, nor do I have any issues with the doctrines of Salvation through Jesus Christ; and No, I am not interesting in debating that fact. I do believe in arguing with brain-dead idiots, who refuse to respect the Bible.

What my issue is with the whole idea of, you guessed it; Church. The whole idea, that I have to go every fucking Sunday to listen to some educated idiot rambling on about his opinion about God, Life, and yes, sometimes, if you’re really lucky..The Bible. Don’t even get me started on the Roman Catholic Church. I have nothing but disdain for that bunch of Child Molesting, Nazi bastard pieces of fucking shit. Guess what? Hitler; you know the dude that slaughtered all those Jews in Germany? He, was Catholic and he did all that madness, with the Pope’s Blessing!  I guess it is because I was into all that bullshit, when I was a young kid. If I sat here and told you that it was all forced down my throat. I would be lying to you all. Church, Jesus Christ, or Religion, if you want to call it that; was never forced upon me at all. I was a willing servant. (Some would say, that I was a willing slave, but that’s another story…)

My, um, I guess you would call it, flame out, happened a few years ago. My Grandmother, on my Mom’s side of the family; died with Alzheimer’s, right about then, all that Pentecostal hokey horseshit that I believed for like 21 years of my life, began to look really silly; at least to me.  So, I did what came very naturally to me, I did some serious research into the origins and history of the Pentecostal Movement. God being the awesome God that he is, lead me to some excellent reading material on the ‘Net. Some of the stuff that I read, made the hair stand up on the back of my neck! 😮 I could not believe that I had been involved with that bunch of crazies for that long, and How the devil had blinded me to the fact that I was being sucked into a false belief system, that results in more bondage than it does freedom; amazed me.

Anyhow, I did something that I really knew that I needed to do, badly. That was to come out of the Pentecostal madness, in favor of some more traditional Christianity. I ended up burning a few long standing, and well built bridges. I lost a few good; well, at least I thought they were; friends. So, I hopped the “Golden fence” and went back to the Baptist side of street, thinking that all would be right and I would live happily ever after. Right?

BZZZZZZT! WRONG!

The truth is, about the Baptists anymore is this. 99.99% of them, are about as Baptist, as I am a Communist. It is a harsh statement to make. But brother; if you’ll excuse the term, it is the truth.

Question: “But did you not you get burned by a group of Baptists? and How come you won’t talk about it?”

Yes, I did. I am ashamed to admit that there are supposed Independent, Fundamental, King James believing Baptists that would stab one of their own in the back. But Yes, it does happen, and Yes, it did happen to me. The reason why I will not get into the “Nitty Gritty” about all the of the situations that happened with me, is this. For one; because I do not want to get sued for writing stuff about people that are still alive, and for two; I just do not see the point sitting here and writing about what “So and So” did to me on said date, and come off sound like some whiny assed liberal who wants to blame all of his issues on someone else!  There were two situations, one happened in the early 1990’s, the other happened in 2006. The first I handled wrong, I got angry and got very rebellious and went off like a idiot and did a bunch of dumb shit, that; when I look back on it, only hurt me.  The second one; I handled much better. Yes, I was angry. But I didn’t lose it. I just simply figured if this “pastor” and I use that term loosely for that idiotic hick; was not going to follow the Bible, when it came to stuff like that, I was “Outta there” and I left. Simple as that. I have not returned. Nor will I ever.

I have been asked; many times over, why I just do not try and find another Church. The simple answer is this; because I am just burned out. On Church, on Religion, on all of that stuff. For now. I know that it is a very wonderful thing, that I should be involved in some sort of a Church. But I am just frazzled out and just do not have the desire any longer. This might change as I get older, and hopefully a bit more, um, Wiser? But for now, I am just not interested.

Does this mean, that I drink? Nope.

Does this mean, that I smoke dope. Nope!

I’m just not doing….Church; for the time being.

What I feel presently can be summed up into a sentence that I saw a long while ago and that is this:

“Jesus Christ is the Messiah, Not Christianity.”

Whew! This post is getting long. Heck, that was just on Religion. I haven’t even gotten into the relationships bit yet.

Relationships; Oy Vey. Where do I start on this subject? Goes back to my early teenage years. I fell hard for a sweet looking young woman. The “Feelings” I had towards her were one way, and it was not in my direction. Needless to say, she married someone else. I do not think I have ever gotten over that one yet. I am much better about it, than I used to be. I have come to terms with it, for the most part. But, admittedly, it does fuel a good part of my rage. 😡 She married a good man and had a baby boy. I am happy for her, I really am. But there’s this little part of me, that screams, “Why couldn’t have that been me?!?!?” I know, it sounds childish, whiney and a bit on the bratty side. But hey, I loved that woman and she thought I was the gum on the bottom of her fucking shoe. Her mother was an impossible bitch. So was she, but, as they say; opposites attract. Did I mention that she was fucking drop-dead gorgeous? She’s changed looks-wise; alot.

Anyhow…. outside of her, I’ve never really fell in love with another woman. I really do not know what that term, even means anymore. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I made a very lame attempt to try and make a relationship work…once, back in the mid-1990’s. What a fucking disaster that was! Oy Vey! Don’t get me wrong. The sex was awesome; but that was about the only awesome thing about that fucked up relationship. She remarried too. Good thing, he can have that fucking psycho bitch! Yes, folks, she was a fucking psycho! 😮

Okay, here’s my rub with Ed’s Postings that I referred to. The very idea that I have to marry some fucking bitch to be considered “Right with God”, according to what Ed believes; is absolutely asinine to me. Marriage is just not something I consider to be taken lightly. I am not going to put a ring on some fucking broads finger, because I want to look good to my family, to some asshole preacher or anything like that. There is a thing, that I happened to hold scared and that’s my personal fucking freedom. I just do not want some fucking harpy assed bitch telling me, what the fuck to do. I see it happen in my family and I find that to be absolutely fucking asinine! It will not happen to me, I assure you of that. It must be the libertarian streak in me or that fact that I am just extremely jaded when it comes to the whole marriage, commitment thing.

But, it is pretty fucking hard to not be this way, when the only person that you really ever gave two shits about, saw you as a fucking piece of dirt. Not to mention the one woman, that, as a man, I allowed to enter my life and I really tried to learn to love, ended up royally fucking me over, and basically lied to my face and said she’d follow me to the end of the earth and then, like 6 weeks later, fucking decided that I was not the one she wanted to be with. But, that’s what I get for hooking up with that fucking user. Which is what she was, a damn dick leech or a mooch…. to get what she wanted from them; sex, money, you name it, she was doing it…. and boy, did she do it to me. God did she ever. Sad part was, she was and still is, as far as I know; A friend of my cousins. Yeah, yeah, I know. I’ve known about that rule too. I broke it….and I paid dearly. (You know, Never hook up with someone your FAMILY tells you to. Big mistake…)

Let me make this clear. I know that there are good women out there. Maybe even one that I would consider to be attractive. But, I’ve yet to find one. I have not been looking, not since my last little fiasco. But I am sure there is someone, somewhere, out there. But, until I find her. I’m single and quite happy about it.