As a rule, I don’t link to this guy; as we have had issues in the past — not to mention other stuff —  But, this one is a big story.

Go read: Massacre: Ronald Haskell Murders Six Members of Texas Mormon Family : The Other McCain.

Now, I feel the need to write about this; because I happen to know a good deal about disabilities and such. There are some out there, that would like to place me in the same class as this guy. If you don’t believe me, check out the links above in the first line of this blog entry. Anyhow, I simply have A.D.H.D. which is basically a learning disability. It mainly affects me in the math department. It also affects my ability to concentrate and stay focused on one particular thing at a time. I have also switched medication for my condition; as much as I hate using that term, makes me sound like I have disease or something. 🙄 Anyhow, so far, so good on the medication change.

As I wrote in this posting here, sometimes bloggers, including the one linked to here; can be downright cruel. This is one of the reasons why I simply do not wish to be part of their “cool kids club.” Because if being a part of that clique means that I have to say things about people, that I really do not know; that are cruel; I want nothing to do with it. When I started my blog “Political Byline” and even back when I ran my first blog, “the populist“, I had walked away from a relationship with the “Church World”, because I had been “done dirty” by a Baptist Pastor. As a result of that, I was angry, very angry —- and I needed a diversion.

….and diverted I did for six long years. I went in, head first; tossed my Christianity in the back seat and went to war against what I thought was evil. In the process of that; I let myself go. One only need to read the archives of my second blog and you will see f-bombs galore. Same goes with my first blog too; what little you can see of it on the wayback machine.

Sometime around 2011, when I closed my second blog and for about a month left the blogging scene; I really had to sit back and take a long look at myself. What I saw — was a mess. What I did was ask the Lord for forgiveness for letting myself get to that point. After that, I made a promise to the Lord, that if I started another blog, that I would try my darndest to let people see Jesus Christ in me; and not me, the sinner, saved by grace. Have I always measured up to that? No. I have failed at it many times. If I sit here, and counted the many times, when I blew my testimony on here and on my previous blogs, I would be here all day writing this posting. All I can truly say is: Thank God for Grace. As I need it every day of my life here on earth.

All I can say about those who believe that I am in the same class as this person above, that did these murders is this here: I know that I might have said and did things in the past that might have given that sort of impression. I can assure you that I am not. Most of what I did was based upon things that others did themselves and I was reacting to it. At the time, my actions were justified, I felt. However, looking back, some of those actions were a bit of an overreaction. I guess that comes with age and maturity. It also came with a change in a medication as well.

Desipramine is the medication that I was on for A.D.H.D. It worked well; but there were side effects. Dry mouth, issues in the sex department; see Viagra, if you know what I mean. This dates back to when I was dated my ex-girlfriend. It also too, tended to make me have a bit of an attitude. I tended to be a bit of a “Hard A$$” with desipramine. Ritalin made me paranoid; more so when I was older. Desipramine was different. I was laid back; but I could be a hard butt. I did not like it at all. Which is why I changed meds with my new doctor for the ADHD.

Another thing that I noticed about this murder story is that this guy killed this family —- over a woman. This is one thing that I will never understand at all. Why would anyone want to commit a murder, over a vagina? I will never understand that one at all. I mean, having sex and the stuff that goes along with that are wonderful. I have been there and did that; and I loved it! However, when a relationship or marriage goes south; just cut your losses and move on. No woman is worth taking a life over. Breakups can hurt; I know, I’ve been there. But, murdering some woman and her family; because she decided to leave you? That makes no sense to me at all.

Yeah, I know, I rambled a little, so what? 😉 😛