I thought I would let everyone know that I am going to be taking the weekend off. I will not lie to you all; I am feeling a bit glum right now. As I mentioned before, I thought I was getting a job. Well, that really did not pan out. My cousin from my Father’s side of the family got a job working for a uniform company. A few days back my cousin came over and really made it clear that if someone called from that company, that someone here at the house should answer the phone. Well, I took that as if I were going to get a phone call to come in for an interview or something. Anyhow, yesterday, I got word that the company really was not hiring anyone. It is not that I do not appreciate my cousin looking out for me, it is just that I have been out of work for so long, that I actually was a bit excited at the prospect of going back to work; only to have the rug yanked out from under me. It does tend to get a bit depressing. I am not blaming my cousin, he meant well. I blame the stupid economy.
Another thing that has me feeling a bit blue is the fact that my so-called “Small Business” is not getting any kind of business at all. It is because of the fact that I just cannot afford the cost of a license for a piece of software that handles the web site, billing, and automation of running a shared hosting business. The license is fifteen dollars a month directly from the software manufacture, or I can get it for twelve dollars and some change a month from a third party who buys the licenses in bulk. Either way, that comes to around one hundred and eighty dollars a year — Which, now, I just do not have to invest in a small business. Not to mention the costs of getting my LLC License and Tax License all set up. I have all those costs itemized over on my Amazon Wish List, in case anyone is interested in helping me out.
I will also make something abundantly clear; I do not blame anyone, but my own self for getting into this situation. I am the idiot, who had the accident back in 2004, which screwed me from ever being hired by another trucking company. I am the idiot who quit the job back in 2005, because it was making me physically sick and did not bother to find another job quickly. I did it, not anyone else. I am the idiot who sat around here and blogged my rear end off from 2006 until now and does not have a damned thing to show for it. It was I, nobody else. I am the one who has written things in the past that were taken out of context and construed as anti-Semitic and/or racist. I did it — no one else. A real man takes responsibility for his mistakes, cowards try to shift blame on others; and I am not a damned coward.
So, there you have it. That is what is happening in my life and it is enough to make a man just want to quit. However, I am not going to quit —- I am, however, going to take a break for the weekend.
Thanks for reading my sob story.
Your somewhat humble host,
Patrick
